Please I Need Someone To Listen To Me
please people listen to me once,i've a lot inside to talk about, a lot of pain and a lot of memories which i would never like to remember again, can someone give me a bit of his time to listen to what i've got to say? i hope at least one does.
When i was in 3rd grade i fell in love with a boy who never cared about me, i loved him till 6th grade when he left the school, he was 3 years older than me, when he left the school he broke my heart more and more i started to cry every night till i fall asleep and i loved him till 9th grade. i turned into an emo girl loves black and hates colors, one day my classmate's cousin sent me a friend request on the facebook, i asked my classmate if he knows this person "Mathew is the name of his cousin" he told me that he's his cousin so i accepted his friend request and started chatting on facebook then he added me on msn we chatted for awhile and then 1 year passed without chatting or even talking to each others for no reason, one day i was chatting with my friend on the msn, he talked to me for the first time afer a yeard had passed, he asked me out for a date, i refused in the beginning because i was still in love with that guy since 3rd grade and now he wants me to love him for no reason? i refused again, i showed my friend the conversation and she asked me to text him and tell him to go on msn he did and i accepted to go out with him on a date from that moment my life started by turning 180 degree, i thought that my life finally has been started finally someone i adore will draw the smile on my lips and finally someone will destroy my lipstick not my mascara our first date was on 19th of june 2011 i remember my first kiss we were standing to the Leumi bank he moved my hands up around to his neck that position made me standing in front of him i was looking at his sunglasses begging him to take them off but he didnt want to so i was trying to look in his eyes i turned my head around to see if anyone i may know is walking in the street but there was none when i turned my head back to look in his eyes he kissed my lips and moved away i was shocked he smiled then we rode a bus we found two empty chairs we sat on them he moved my head to his shoulder and he hugged me till we arrived.. it doesnt matter what happened there but we were about to have sex but i was a stupid girl who really doesnt know the meaning of sex after that day i knew everything about it...but it was bad for me not good at all we kept on seeing each others till april and then i found out that he has another girl in his life, his girlfriend when i saw them hugging each others i called him yelled at him and drank a lot of medicine which i end up sleeping in the hospital he didnt know about it i even didnt tell him but in fact i tried to suicide then he appologized and we were back together but he kept on showing me her pictures and describing how beautiful she is to me that made my pain bigger and deeper he didnt notice that but i relly couldnt hold that pain anymore, so i tried to suicide again i thought that it was the only soloution to this situation but i ended up sleeping in the hospital again for no good realson and then next day we left each others when i went to the school my bestfriends didnt want to talk to me everyone in school was looking down at me like im such a street girl walking around i couldnt hold that in but till now im still holding it in. then i met my classmate's cousin "Yousif" he is muslim but i loved him and he loved me back but he did the same thing with me when i first saw him he took me to a public place mini mall we went to the parking floor where there was no one it even had no lights it was so dark he kissed me and he did more he done that for sometimes when i was with him then i realized that he doesnt love me when he let his cousin touch my body and both of them go in orgea with me , i was shocked then i left him the same day after 4 days i met a new guy "Ward" he was so cool so funny, good hearted, in 4 days he succeeded in making me fall for him he used to call me everyday and night and i used to tell him evything about me, first date was at his house we were alone he won my heart got my body thats it now im addicted to sex and i am a heart broken girl i cry everynight till i fall asleep i pray and wish to die but before i wish someone could listen to me at least once...
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